Less than a song in my heart...
After no sleep with 4-month old Lucy last night, I woke with something a little less like a song and a little more like a rant in my heart. The day is rainy and cold, and that foggy gloom seemed to sift into my soul. As I angrily made coffee and accidentally poured cereal into my coffee creamer, I began to mentally list all the things that did not go as I had desired last night. Lucy screamed for a half hour after I lovingly sang, prayed, and rocked with her. She woke up every hour on the hour (it seemed like) until I just lay in bed waiting to hear her not so tiny cries to be held. At 6:00, I finally gave up and pulled her from the crib (again) and nursed her in bed.
It was not until she looked up at me with love in her eyes and a milk mustache on her face that I remembered, I signed up for this. Albeit, I had no idea what I was signing up for on that fateful day in December. But the fact remains - this tiny life was entrusted in my arms and my heart. My husband and I are responsible before God for raising her in the nurture and admonition of the Lord.
I read a blog just yesterday about how Satan is always lying in wait to "steal my mommyhood" from me. At the time, it brought me to tears and I was deeply moved to be more careful than ever to cherish these sleepless nights and gummy smiles. In a matter of hours, though, I was already bitterly complaining about all the things that I have to do for others (namely one little person).
When we make up our minds to change a character flaw that we find in ourselves, Satan jumps on that bandwagon immediately! Further proof that a correction of that particular issue will make us more effective for Christ and more of a blessing to our families and friends. My heart grows heavy, when I realize how many times I disappoint my husband and my heavenly Father. But I also know that they both love me unconditionally and forgive a repentant heart without hesitation.
Galatians 3:11 says, "But that no man is justified by the law in the sight of God, it is evident: for, The just shall live by faith." And verse 13a says, "Christ hath redeemed us from the curse of the law, being made a curse for us..."
I am so very thankful that my salvation in Christ is not dependent on my good works - or on my many failures. Christ was made a curse for us. He took the curse of my sin on himself. He died for me. I will never understand completely the reason why He loved me that much. Although, being a mother I understand a little better than I used to. No matter what that little girl does, I love her. And no matter what we do or have done in the past, our heavenly Father loves us. Your sin is not too great for his love.
It was not until she looked up at me with love in her eyes and a milk mustache on her face that I remembered, I signed up for this. Albeit, I had no idea what I was signing up for on that fateful day in December. But the fact remains - this tiny life was entrusted in my arms and my heart. My husband and I are responsible before God for raising her in the nurture and admonition of the Lord.
I read a blog just yesterday about how Satan is always lying in wait to "steal my mommyhood" from me. At the time, it brought me to tears and I was deeply moved to be more careful than ever to cherish these sleepless nights and gummy smiles. In a matter of hours, though, I was already bitterly complaining about all the things that I have to do for others (namely one little person).
When we make up our minds to change a character flaw that we find in ourselves, Satan jumps on that bandwagon immediately! Further proof that a correction of that particular issue will make us more effective for Christ and more of a blessing to our families and friends. My heart grows heavy, when I realize how many times I disappoint my husband and my heavenly Father. But I also know that they both love me unconditionally and forgive a repentant heart without hesitation.
Galatians 3:11 says, "But that no man is justified by the law in the sight of God, it is evident: for, The just shall live by faith." And verse 13a says, "Christ hath redeemed us from the curse of the law, being made a curse for us..."
I am so very thankful that my salvation in Christ is not dependent on my good works - or on my many failures. Christ was made a curse for us. He took the curse of my sin on himself. He died for me. I will never understand completely the reason why He loved me that much. Although, being a mother I understand a little better than I used to. No matter what that little girl does, I love her. And no matter what we do or have done in the past, our heavenly Father loves us. Your sin is not too great for his love.
I mean, seriously, could you stay mad at that face??? :)
Always enjoy reading your thoughts on God's Word and His love for us...and on life in general:) Keep it up!
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